Missknee's Blog


Creative Juice malfunction.
January 26, 2012, 5:57 pm
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I just watched the film ‘Julie and Julia’. I think it was supposed to inspire me. Instead it made me want to drown myself in chocolate sauce. Not metaphorically. Rather I fancied the sugary death supplied by that particular foodstuff, as it seemed appropriate at the time. 

Julie and Julia, judging by the cheerful front cover art and ‘hot pink’ DVD case promised a ‘FEELGOOD’ experience. Instead I was struck by the constant carnality of those involved. They were always fucking or eating. Underpinning this montage of fucking and eating (in the pretense of finding one’s self) was the terrible postmodern fear that nothing new can ever be achieved. Harold Bloom is stood behind the camera laughing manically, if you listen hard you’ll hear it hidden in the sound of Julie and Julia’s frantic whisking.

Instead of resolution and some kind of ‘MY MOTHER FINALLY APPROVES OF ME’ ending, we are told that Julia (The woman who wrote the book which inspired the blog, or is the other way around?) ‘hates’ the blog based on her book. They dismiss her as an old woman who probably doesn’t understand new-fangled technology. Julie and her husband decide it’s better never to meet the woman who brought Julie through the crisis of turning thirty. Julia (JULIE?) will always be in her head as a perfect motherly being. 

Moral of the story ‘STUFF IS BETTER IN YOUR HEAD SO DON’T ATTEMPT TO WIN APPROVAL, CAUSE INEVITABLY YOU’LL NEVER BE GOOD OR ORIGINAL. JUST GO EAT BUTTER AND HAVE SOME SEX. YES?’

 Perhaps actually quite a unusual moral for Hollywood RomComoftheSelf. (<—Look at that Harold Bloom, I just created a new genre to describe narcissistic films like Julie and Julia)



Postponement
September 26, 2011, 9:23 am
Filed under: Musings, Non-Fiction, Review

I’m currently in limbo, finishing off my dissertation. I broke my finger which warranted me getting an extension for two weeks. So now I have a week and half left, and people are disappearing from York whilst I sit in my room reading about concentration camps and ‘The Red Shoes’. This is made much easier by the fact I actually really like my topic. However, all the books I need to dip into at the last second have been taken from the library and I’m drinking far too much tea. All I know is that this is going to a long week and a bit. But come the 4th of October I’ll be blogging and writing again.

I watched Pina [Wim Wenders, 2011] yesterday, and it was stunningly beautiful. I wish it would have shown a whole dance, and I kept wanting to see the faces of the audience. The dvd extras interview with Wim Wenders had such awful sound I wondered why they’d bothered putting it on. You could barely understand what Wenders was saying amongst the babble in the background.

I also saw Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy. It was very good, the acting was incredible and I loved the sound design. The framing was gorgeous, the only thing was that the focus pulling felt a little arduous at times. However, I loved that he didn’t patronize the audience into spelling everything out too simply. I felt confused at points, but this was part of the confusion of the film.

Recently I have started finding blogs to follow regularly. Here are three that I really enjoy dipping into:

Ultra Culture | The UK’s Greatest Movie Blog! (Check their own movie links out to find an incredible gallery of online movie gifs. Who knew they could look so stunning? Also ‘The Art of the Title’ is fascinating too.)

A Piece of Monologue: Literature, Philosophy, Criticism (Good links to lots of things about literature)

Studio Lauren (My friend’s blog in which she makes things and takes hilarious and cute pictures/videos of her daughter, Ivy)

I finally use my twitter account a lot more: if you want to find me I am @missknee.

See you on the otherside.



Kneehigh’s The Wild Bride
August 19, 2011, 10:11 am
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As mentioned in an earlier post I am now in Cornwall doing some research for my dissertation and volunteering again with Kneehigh Theatre Company. Last night I saw most of The Wild Bride, their new show which is playing for the next week and half at the Asylum in Cornwall and will be touring the UK afterwards. It was an absolutely beautiful and incredible show, and I’d totally recommend it.

In other news:

A friend of mine has started a website which encourages illustrators to submit pictures to accompany the text of Borges’ The Book of Imaginary Beings, which offers illustrators the chance to exhibit their work and help charities in Oxford.

http://borgesproject.moonfruit.com/#

Finally, a clip from Tales of Hoffman (Powell and Pressburger, 1951)

Oooh isn’t it odd?



Maelstrom Cake
August 4, 2011, 4:19 pm
Filed under: Cake

My friend Lauren’s birthday cake. It had to be Kwojo-friendly (her partner) so it is dairy-free delicious blueberry and coconut cake with dairy-free soft cheese (I know… What!?) icing. It was tasty and fun to make.



Jokes About Ovaries
August 4, 2011, 4:06 pm
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Research has begun on a devised show called ‘Jokes About Ovaries’, and to celebrate the attitude within the show we have begun a blog in order to share our research with the world.

http://jokesaboutovaries.wordpress.com/

Please check back for updates on how the show is going, and interesting facts about ovaries. And jokes. Jokes. About. Ovaries. We will find some. I promise. Here is a video of Garfunkel and Oates to celebrate:

 



Back to the Asylum
August 4, 2011, 3:52 pm
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Due to my current location in York I haven’t been able to get down to see the new Kneehigh shows, however I’m planning a two week ‘research’ trip to Cornwall, during which I will be volunteering again. The shows are looking brilliant, and every time I run into a review or a video link I feel terribly sad I’m sat in library and not in a giant tent.

The Wild Bride

Midnight’s Pumpkin

Midnight’s Pumpkin in The Asylum

The Asylum in the Mist

The shows are getting great reviews from the press, and they’ve got the tent up near Truro in Cornwall. I’m a little bit overexcited.

There are also a selection of Anna Murphy’s stories appearing on Youtube to beautifully edited footage of Cornwall. Here’s the newest:

 

 



Legitimate C.V. additions?
July 19, 2011, 6:48 pm
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Stubs
June 22, 2011, 6:36 pm
Filed under: Fiction

Some short pieces produced in my writing class this term. They are far from earth shattering, but they seem like a nice way to start blogging again.

This first piece was an exercise in which we were not allowed to use adverbs and adjectives:

She stepped lower to the landing, the carpet scratched against the soles of her feet. Her hand lingered on the banister, and she shifted her weight, swinging round to the next set of stairs. In the hallway a parcel hung through the door. She had not been expecting anything. She opened the parcel at the kitchen table. It contained a photograph in a frame, a toy and a whistle. She pushed them around the table until they sat in size order on the wood. The toy was an alligator, she wound it up and pinched its stomach as it walked and snapped. It petered out. She stood and reached to switch on the radio. The sound of laughte r filled the kitchen. On the table the alligator lay on its back. She sat and sipped at her tea. A corner of paper poked from the parcel remnants, she slid it across the table and read the pencil marks that had been scrawled across it. It said it was sorry, that it hadn’t known what to do with these things. That they belonged to someone else but this was the address in the book that had stood out. It wasn’t signed. She picked up the photo frame. The reflection of light from the window slid across the glass. Finger prints appeared like an oil slick. It was a photo of her.

 

 

Another piece, another week:

A Note

The paper he received the message on was ordinary. It was bleached, white paper, sharp cornered and concertinaed up to fit inside the brown envelope. It was the writing that made the hairs on his forearms prickle. Not the message, per se, but the size and placement of the letters.

‘The cafe on the corner of Lexington Street and Highgate Road. 12 noon. April 5th.’

It was in the exact middle of the sheet, in a tiny, neat handwriting. There were no rubbed out pencil markings that might have been used for reference, or mistakes in the sentence. The regimented and level capitals, all though quite definitely hand-written, could have been printed. The ‘t’ was no bigger than the nib of his biro. He tried to copy the writing. After four sheets of paper and a wasted half hour, he gave up.  It was impossible to recreate such perfection. What kind of person could have written such a note? They must be a master of art. Or perhaps a painter of miniatures. Whoever it was, they were either a calligraphic protégé or, more worryingly, possessed such a calculating mind, that this note could be produced at a moment’s glance.

He felt the bile rise in his throat. When he had sat at his office desk that morning he could not have known the danger he faced as he began gutting envelopes. He had wielded his thumb like a knife, carelessly and callously through bills and documents. Until this. He pushed the shorn envelopes across the desk and pressed his forehead against the cool surface of his mouse mat. He would have to go. Shit.

 

And a short section of a longer piece we produced:

“Nice boots.” The beady-eyed man across the table was staring at me. He nodded pointedly at my feet.

“Thank you.” I turned a page in the free rail magazine. A woman in a yellow dress laughed vapidly up at me from the picture. It was an advert for women suffering from slight incontinence. She didn’t look incontinent, but then you never can tell.

“When did you go?” said the man. He was persistent.

“What?” I knitted my eyebrows together.

“Your wristband, Glastonbury, isn’t it?” As he said it he clicked his lighter repetitively. It was out of gas.

“Yeah.”

The conversation limped on, and I stared blankly around. The man on the other side of the aisle was sat in a pleasurable silence, I glared at him. No one was trying to talk to him. This was the last time I wore these boots, next time I would wear a suit and loafers. I nodded in response to something the man had said, he was leaning forward in his seat and tapping his finger on the table. It was plump and round. I averted my eyes from it. The city outside the window was composed of lines of derelict warehouses and tagged concrete walls.

He said something about the toilets at Glastonbury. “They are pretty horrible,” I replied, trying not to think of the smell of port-a-loos on a hot day.

“That’s nothing compared to Iraq.”

I half snorted, but he was definitely in earnest. He looked at me seriously, “It’s hell out there.”

“How do you know?” Shit, I was being rude. “I mean, have you been?” I pointed at his khaki army trousers. He shuffled his bum up the seat until he was sat up straight.

“It was on the news: ITV special report. It’s worse than hell. There’s bodies everywhere.”

I put my face in my hands. I was changing in an hour and twenty minutes. That was too long, I had to get out of there. “Would you keep an eye on my seat? I’ve got to pop to the buffet carriage.” He nodded, and I slid out and away from his tapping fingers and sideways glances.

I dawdled up the aisle. Double vision had kicked in and the only way I could stay up straight was to walk my arms along the tops of the seats. There wasn’t much movement in the carriages. The occasional turn of a newspaper page. A woman talking loudly on her phone. A line of swaying people outside the toilet. When I reached the buffet, the counter was deserted and the cabinets empty. My stomach growled and I hung around for a few minutes, hoping to waste some time. The train pulled in at a station, no one got on, it pulled away. I had only ever seen this town from a train, and it was soon out of a sight. Newton Abbot. No, thank you.

When I reached my seat only the man’s beret remained. Either he had been swept away by ITV special reporters for further insights into the Iraq war, or he was in the bathroom. I carefully checked the bag I had left for bombs or faecal matter. Then I rolled up my jumper and leaned on the window, feigning sleep.

The man came back, I could hear him tapping and clicking. I kept my eyes shut. It was a game of sleeping lions. He got off at Taunton, no surprises there. He saw me staring at him as the train pulled away, he moved to wave at me, or swear. I’m not sure which. The train got faster and faster until we were overtaking cars on roads, and a shower of rain slid horizontally along the window.

Today’s efforts (very rough):

I came through the lobby into the bar, my shoes slipping off my heels at every step. I was desperate for a drink and some company. The room was all mahogany and green silk, as if the designer had taken inspiration from illustrations of Victorian gentlemen’s clubs. It all looked flat. I wasn’t sure if it was the oppressive lighting caused by the heavy drapery or the dressing over my left eye. I stood for a few seconds in the doorway, turning my head slowly so I could take in the whole room. There were lounge chairs and low tables scattered in pockets around a central parade to the dining room. People in evening wear milled around, gathering to drink and chatter before dinner. The only places left to sit were the stools at the other end of the bar, so I crossed the room towards it. A waiter brushed past me, spinning a tray between his hands, the reflection from the chandelier blinded my eye for a second. I swayed on the spot, feeling the rush of air touch my bare arm. The hairs bristled and prickled. And I turned my head and peered past my nose to where he approached a large group of people. He said something and they all rose, turning their bodies towards me as they made their way to the dining room. I stood still under the chandelier as they pushed past me, wondering if I should take their table. I turned back to the bar. The room felt longer than it had first seemed, and someone walked over the floor above the chandelier. If there hadn’t been a lull in the conversation as well as the piano music coming from the hall I would have missed it. The chandelier tinkling with each footstep. I stared up at the dusty pendants, my eye straining against the muscles in it’s socket. Someone passed me and my eye began to water. I swept away the tear, I didn’t want them to think I was crying. 

 



New Years Resolution
January 9, 2011, 3:35 am
Filed under: Musings, Non-Fiction, Uncategorized

That’s right, it may be late (in both the time of night and for new years) but I’ve got my resolution. Perhaps not drinking rum ever again would have been a good one, or last years one could have been carried over (to eat more slowly), but this year is going to be different.

I am giving up the exclamation mark.

That’s right kids. It’s going. The punctuation mark that I use above all others. You see, somewhere in my youth when I had a livejournal account I decided that exclamation marks made text sound lively and enthusiastic. However, the other day I found this old online diary, and upon reading it began to hate my younger self. The tone was dreadful…. here is an extract:

I want an a* in english!!!!! I need one!!!! Why am i so englishly challenged?!!!! My teacher is really getting me down, I have a the urge to blame it all on her.. but its probably me.  NEVERMIND! Oh ooh oooh!!! I might be going to see the dead Kennedys, no idea who they are BUT WHO CARES! I am going with maryam and Russell told me that he would be there and he was going. Hes so lovely! He used to so so soooo quiet never saying more than a couple of words, but now he chats to me endlessly! tis great! Well until he quits skating.

That was from 2004, I was sixteen. I was extremely annoying. And who the hell was Russell? Apart from confusion about who all these different men were that I used to have a crush on, as well as the awful grammar and spelling, the ‘fangirl’ style use of exclamation marks is possibly the most horrific feature of this diary entry. Thus, in the days that followed, a heightened awareness of this symbol occurred, and I realised maybe I hadn’t changed that much..? Maybe I was still that awful sixteen year old girl that had few friends and spent much of her time online chatting on forums? Maybe I was a loser…?

Before I could have some kind of life crisis, I placated myself that somethings had changed. I had been in a successful relationship, I did have many friends now, and the amount of time I spent talking on forums to people about Lord of the Rings had reduced to zero. However, that pesky exclamation mark had gone viral: it was in my texts, my emails, it even sounded like I was silently punctuating them on the end of my speech. It had got to the point where full-stops sounded so lifeless and dull that I felt obliged to exclaim everything. Like a seaman slips into cursing, I had slipped into the land of the exclamation mark. The written equivalent of shouting in someone’s face.

But it’s ok. I’ve changed. They’re gone as you may have noticed. This is going to be hard year, but I’m hoping I can manage to survive the exclamatory drought (Otherwise I might have to sign right back up to that LOTR forum and start *droooling* over Awlandough Bwoom).



Career Guidance Film
December 22, 2010, 11:53 am
Filed under: Film, Musings, Review

Good morning all,

a short film I wrote earlier this year has been adjusted and is currently in preproduction with a bunch of wonderful chaps I met at the University of York. There’s Matt, our director who is doing the MA in Writing, Directing and Performance and then four men from the technical post-production side: Jeff and Jon our sound engineers and James and Andrew our visual engineers. We also have a lovely lady called Hannah as one of our actors. We’ve sorted our location, negotitated crazy late night filming hours, got hold of the equipment, checked out the sound, and begun rehearsals. Fingers crossed by the end of January we will have a film that can be sent off to festivals. Though this is technically a practice run for our next project. We are hoping to come up with a production group name over christmas and everyone is has the lovely homework task of creating fake career guidance posters. ‘A is for Abbatoir cleaner, B is for Banner Holder, C is for Cat Commiserator, D is for Duckling Weigher.’

I’m also beginning research on a set of stories based around the idea of ‘Revenge Motivated Time Travel’. It will be both a short story collection and a guide to proecting yourself against revenge-motivated time travel, as well how to commit it yourself. In my head it is a graphic novel.

Last night I went to my friend’s house and we watched Belleville Rendez-vous

A bizarre animation which was perfect for a snowy winter’s evening after a hard day’s reading. I’m looking forward to watching the Illusionist when that becomes available on DVD. I am disgustingly snowed under with work, and even more disgustingly not getting on with it. All I know is that this MA (now in Film and Literature) is making me want to become a pirate and get a tattoo.

I’m hoping to go see Swallows and Amazons at Bristol Old Vic this Christmas (it was one of my favourite books as a child), and possible seeing ‘Rare Exports’ this evening. That’s the horror film about Father Christmas. Once I get this hideous essay out of the way next year will begin with a blaze of British Cinema watching and Children’s Literature (I was going to study Beckett but the lure of Children’s Literature and Picturebooks was too strong.).




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